a short notice
before you continue
reading this little piece of written art
that rarely people enjoy anymore
but this is written from nowhere and not
about anyone that ever existed
or been close to my floating vessel - in human terms called body.
from nowhere
you appear and strike
from behind and
from inside
a feeling that simply go
away
you bend me
you break me in every possible way
its a game and you make me lose it
blaming myself every
time they laugh
with me its just an
illusion
slowly fading away
by realizing something must be
done, very quickly.
the warden once told me
remove yourself from the face of earth
or remove everyone else
would you rather let them suffer of your loss
or would you live through eternal loneliness?
i answered that i would let them suffer by losing everyone
else around them - in the end i would feel the pain myself when i am alone.
But then i am safe, no one cannot watch my weak, self-blaming and disgusting existence walk around
on the face of earth.
i am hovering sleeplessly
orbiting around your heart
waiting for the moment to hit you again
so you fall into the void
open your eyes and cleanse your filthy soul
listen to the hum of millions and millions of vessels
orbiting around your heart while it beats slowly in sync
with mine.